Go to chapter 1 (if you missed it)
I was quite disappointed that my best friend Jumani did not shown up to give me farewell. Maybe he will be there in the morning. So I went sleep with quite bad mood. Damn!
Just when I closed my eyes, I heard knocking on my door. He was there with big grin on his face!
"Sorry it took so long. You know its not easy to snatch some tasty remedy."
His father is village healer and uses alcohol to treat wounds. And he had only a small stash left now. This years stuff was not even fermenting yet. I hope he wont miss it too much.
"I thought you forget about me." I said. "Who do you think is my best friend? And who knows when I see you again."
We drank and chatted for a few hours. Like it was the last night of our lives. It could even be true. At least out lives together. I will definitely miss him and our occasional drinking parties. He was unable to bring more that small bottle of stuff from time to time, but it was great!
We usually hide just after first corner of dragon cave and slowly drink it and chatted about how we will be great heroes once. My dream was to ride a dragon like those old knights our elder was talking about and he always said that he will heal my sorry burnt ass when I return. He was such a joker. We had such great times together! It was him who kept me afloat when my father died.
But it will be hard day for me tomorrow. I need to catch at least some sleep. So I hugged him hard and long and he went home. I was pleasantly tired so I fell asleep nearly immediately. I had my favorite dream about me riding dragon. But my ass was burning like hell. Damn that Jumani and his gabble! I hope real life dragons aren't that hot to touch.
But what was strange, there was also some woman. I never saw her in my dreams yet. She was there when I was riding that dragon. Very peculiar. I don't know what she was doing there or who she was but she was quite nice looking. We will see. Dreams are so hazy anyway!
I would like to sleep longer, but sun was already up so I had to go. I already packed all my things yesterday so I just dressed myself in my new drake hide clothes (so comfortable!), put backpack on my back and took my fathers long bow.
I was ready to leave. When I went up around our elders hut I saw that all villagers were there already and all were looking at me. Elder went forth and told me:
"Remember dragons have poor sight. When you have this clothes they cant smell you too. So when dragon is near, don't move. It might save your life one day." I already knew that from my father, but I thanked him for his wisdom.
"Go through dragon cave. When you go to crossroads, always look for circle with 3 lines inside, that will guide your way up to the mountain pass. When you are out of the cave, there is only one way to go. Good luck on your journey and go with Mighty Yamar's blessing."
I gave my farewell to all and went up to the dragon cave. This is the first day of my new life.
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2017-04-09
2017-04-07
Why I hate organized religion
Yeah, I know that I promised you in my last hate post that it won't happen again. Never say never! At least its not that common. So I promise to you that I try to keep this type of posts at minimum. But this one is not that hateful in the end.
Ok, you have been warned. Fell free to skip this post if it offends you somehow.
This rant is not against any particular religion, its about the principles they have all in common. Every religion have its set of rules or dogmas. And you have to obey them or you burn in hell (or somewhere nearby).
This actually makes your life easier. You are told what to do, how to do that and what to never do. Same as with politics from my first rant. Someone makes decisions for you and you just obey.
But if you want to grow, learn, be stronger you need to question all around you and pick what you think is best for you. And easy life is not good for your personal growth. Trust me on that.
Every religion is more like clever marketing around your faith. They want you docile, they want your money, your support, they gain power through followers. Do you want to be dependent on them? Do you really want to be theirs puppet?
I know, thinking hurts. But its the only way how to be better. How to be independent. How to have your own set of beliefs.
Its not bad idea to study religions. Because there are truths out there. But they usually hidden deep and far between. But if you do find something interesting, incorporate it into your own religion. That personal one just for you. But be prepared to question it and throw it out when it is no longer coherent with your other newer truths.
For example I believe in reincarnation. And I believe in karma. It makes me better. It makes me do only those things to other which I want other do to me (but its sometimes quite difficult). I and I try to teach that to my kids.
So yeah, I believe in god (whatever that is - not whoever!) but I don't believe in any religion. I have my own set of rules.
And I believe I have a purpose in my life. I don't know if I found it yet but I believe its not yet my time to end this life. And I will not end my life by my own hand. But I don't fear death. I saw my own death in my past lives a few times so I know its nothing to be afraid of if you at least try hard to fulfill your purpose here. Small problem is that you know that purpose for sure only after your death. Before it its only speculations (but meditations and asking your astral guide helps great deal).
Ok, you have been warned. Fell free to skip this post if it offends you somehow.
This rant is not against any particular religion, its about the principles they have all in common. Every religion have its set of rules or dogmas. And you have to obey them or you burn in hell (or somewhere nearby).
This actually makes your life easier. You are told what to do, how to do that and what to never do. Same as with politics from my first rant. Someone makes decisions for you and you just obey.
But if you want to grow, learn, be stronger you need to question all around you and pick what you think is best for you. And easy life is not good for your personal growth. Trust me on that.
Every religion is more like clever marketing around your faith. They want you docile, they want your money, your support, they gain power through followers. Do you want to be dependent on them? Do you really want to be theirs puppet?
I know, thinking hurts. But its the only way how to be better. How to be independent. How to have your own set of beliefs.
Its not bad idea to study religions. Because there are truths out there. But they usually hidden deep and far between. But if you do find something interesting, incorporate it into your own religion. That personal one just for you. But be prepared to question it and throw it out when it is no longer coherent with your other newer truths.
For example I believe in reincarnation. And I believe in karma. It makes me better. It makes me do only those things to other which I want other do to me (but its sometimes quite difficult). I and I try to teach that to my kids.
So yeah, I believe in god (whatever that is - not whoever!) but I don't believe in any religion. I have my own set of rules.
And I believe I have a purpose in my life. I don't know if I found it yet but I believe its not yet my time to end this life. And I will not end my life by my own hand. But I don't fear death. I saw my own death in my past lives a few times so I know its nothing to be afraid of if you at least try hard to fulfill your purpose here. Small problem is that you know that purpose for sure only after your death. Before it its only speculations (but meditations and asking your astral guide helps great deal).
2017-04-05
Story of his life - 1
Go to chapter 9 (if you missed it)
My name is Jani. And I was selected for this year trip to Uda. It was great honor for me. And great surprise. I just recently come to age to be eligible for selection, so I succeed in first try! I'm so excited!
Life was not easy for me. My mother died when I was very young. My father told me that she never recovered from my difficult birth. He loved her so much. He was always telling me that I have her eyes and kind soul.
My father died in last dragon mating season. He was a hunter and was not able to get back to relative safety of our village before crazed dragons started their ritual. I was barely old enough to take care about myself. Neighbors tried to help me, but they did not had much to spare. Maybe that was why I was the first choice for trip.
They say life is much easier in Uda. Lots of free lasses to marry and river with lots of fish that never freezes. But trip through mountain pass and dragon cave is dangerous. I don't know about anyone that made it back. Either they all died or no one wants to return from Uda back here. I hope for the later.
Dragons are no threat otherwise, but when they mate they don't know what they are doing so we need to go out of their way.
Life is hard in our snowy valley. Only in short summer patches of grass appear. Not many people live here and only those hardest survive. Was it not for dragons we would have perished long time ago. Soil that was touched with dragon fire takes quite long to freeze again - just enough to give us one harvest of grass seeds and some berries. Together with some hunting and fishing we get just enough to survive.
And nearly every year, when dragons fight for right to mate one of them dies. Then we feast on its meat and make clothes from their hide that keeps you warm even in hardest winter.
On today's village gathering, after I was selected, everyone gave me something for my trip. Some gave smoked or dried dragon meat, some seeds, roots or medicine herbs. I even got fine dragon clothes from village elder and big backpack to keep all my things in. Those clothes were perfect fit for me so maybe they know for some time that they choose me.
I thanked all of them and went home for my last sleep on bed, probably for a long time. Tomorrow morning I will go. Summer won't be long and I need every ray of sun to keep me warm up in the mountains.
Go to chapter 2
My name is Jani. And I was selected for this year trip to Uda. It was great honor for me. And great surprise. I just recently come to age to be eligible for selection, so I succeed in first try! I'm so excited!
Life was not easy for me. My mother died when I was very young. My father told me that she never recovered from my difficult birth. He loved her so much. He was always telling me that I have her eyes and kind soul.
My father died in last dragon mating season. He was a hunter and was not able to get back to relative safety of our village before crazed dragons started their ritual. I was barely old enough to take care about myself. Neighbors tried to help me, but they did not had much to spare. Maybe that was why I was the first choice for trip.
They say life is much easier in Uda. Lots of free lasses to marry and river with lots of fish that never freezes. But trip through mountain pass and dragon cave is dangerous. I don't know about anyone that made it back. Either they all died or no one wants to return from Uda back here. I hope for the later.
Dragons are no threat otherwise, but when they mate they don't know what they are doing so we need to go out of their way.
Life is hard in our snowy valley. Only in short summer patches of grass appear. Not many people live here and only those hardest survive. Was it not for dragons we would have perished long time ago. Soil that was touched with dragon fire takes quite long to freeze again - just enough to give us one harvest of grass seeds and some berries. Together with some hunting and fishing we get just enough to survive.
And nearly every year, when dragons fight for right to mate one of them dies. Then we feast on its meat and make clothes from their hide that keeps you warm even in hardest winter.
On today's village gathering, after I was selected, everyone gave me something for my trip. Some gave smoked or dried dragon meat, some seeds, roots or medicine herbs. I even got fine dragon clothes from village elder and big backpack to keep all my things in. Those clothes were perfect fit for me so maybe they know for some time that they choose me.
I thanked all of them and went home for my last sleep on bed, probably for a long time. Tomorrow morning I will go. Summer won't be long and I need every ray of sun to keep me warm up in the mountains.
Go to chapter 2
2017-04-03
How I started to enjoy wurm again
As I wrote in this post, I quit Wurm after I burnt out with my first toon. Took me nearly 9 months before I got back. At first only with new character to look at my old place, then I spent a few weeks with old friends on their new deed on Xanadu.
I was hooked again. Then I posted on forums that I want to buy some starter character - I did not wanted to skill it all the way from start. Then I found my current toon. With only one skill above 50 (carpentry), it was not expensive, but saved me quite a few weeks of skilling.
Only small problem was that this toon was located on Independence server and all my friends were either on Celebration or Xanadu. I needed ship fast to get there. Fortunately I found unfinished knarr nearby with all hard parts (ropes, sails and composite components) already in and only bulk (planks, pegs, rivets and such) waiting to be attached.
But I was quite frustrated with my low skills. Everything now took much more time than I was used to. So I bought complete set of skiller tools and started grinding hard. Then I found quite helpful neighbor and things started to look much better.
I finished that knarr in just 4 weeks, skilling shipbuilding from 1 to nearly 50, same with woodcutting to get better chance at attaching remaining parts. I even get meditation to around 50 in those first 2 months of premium time.
That friendly neighbor deeded place I was squatting on, but let me stay on his new trader deed so I was happy. I had a place to stay and even don't have to pay for it.
The best thing was pause after those 2 prem months. This first pause was partly because I wanted to wait for next meditation question. But it was better than expected. From that time I keep my schedule of grinding hard for 1 or 2 months and then pause for 1 or 2 months to gather strength for next big grind.
When I bought next premium time and with my ship finished I went on sailing visiting my old friends. I stayed on Celebration for a few weeks grinding fighting from single digit to nearly 60. That deed was near big plains so lots of things to kill around.
I kept myself useful by improving all I found around. For example all pans in forges around :) But that will be for this post.
I was hooked again. Then I posted on forums that I want to buy some starter character - I did not wanted to skill it all the way from start. Then I found my current toon. With only one skill above 50 (carpentry), it was not expensive, but saved me quite a few weeks of skilling.
Only small problem was that this toon was located on Independence server and all my friends were either on Celebration or Xanadu. I needed ship fast to get there. Fortunately I found unfinished knarr nearby with all hard parts (ropes, sails and composite components) already in and only bulk (planks, pegs, rivets and such) waiting to be attached.
But I was quite frustrated with my low skills. Everything now took much more time than I was used to. So I bought complete set of skiller tools and started grinding hard. Then I found quite helpful neighbor and things started to look much better.
I finished that knarr in just 4 weeks, skilling shipbuilding from 1 to nearly 50, same with woodcutting to get better chance at attaching remaining parts. I even get meditation to around 50 in those first 2 months of premium time.
That friendly neighbor deeded place I was squatting on, but let me stay on his new trader deed so I was happy. I had a place to stay and even don't have to pay for it.
The best thing was pause after those 2 prem months. This first pause was partly because I wanted to wait for next meditation question. But it was better than expected. From that time I keep my schedule of grinding hard for 1 or 2 months and then pause for 1 or 2 months to gather strength for next big grind.
When I bought next premium time and with my ship finished I went on sailing visiting my old friends. I stayed on Celebration for a few weeks grinding fighting from single digit to nearly 60. That deed was near big plains so lots of things to kill around.
I kept myself useful by improving all I found around. For example all pans in forges around :) But that will be for this post.
2017-04-01
Story of my life - chapter 9
Go to chapter 8 (if you missed it)
Next day was full of packing of all belongings to carts. We also went to cave a few times to gather as much element as we could. Who knows whats on the other side of that portal. And we need that element to feed the dragon (seems that he lives on meat but without element there is no flight or fire).
In the evening there was quite some people with full carts of stuff near entrance to cave. Dragon told us that way to portal is quite long and we should hurry. It was not that bad after all. Took us a few hours, but tunnels we quite smooth and fortunately none were blocked by cave-ins or lava. Tremors were nearly constant but this old lava tunnels held nicely.
Interestingly we had not seen any other dragon all the way here. Is that one we found the last one? He told us that he is definitely not the last one (at least he hoped) but dragons do not live it this particular cave.
When we arrived to the chamber of fight we saw that portal for first time. Floor was covered with smooth cooled lava so it was quite easy to reach it. It was a circle of blue shimmering light on far wall surrounded by strange symbols around it on floor an wall.
We convinced our dragon to go with us through with all the people behind us. Just after we crossed that light surface connection to my vessel broke. Last sensation was picture of some lush green valley with sun shining. Could it be Earth? Sun diameter was just about right and not that small as here. And I could felt that gravity was much higher too.
I woke up with sadness because I felt I probably never see him again. We will see in coming days. It will be much more lonely here without him.
...
And I was right. No connection during my sleep for a week. I could play with element and hone my skills but without my dreams with vessel it was pointless. So today I went for a walk in a cave my mining robots found recently. It was strangely familiar. As this cave tunnel near that place of fight. It was not easy to move fast and safely in my space suit but I managed to reach that last chamber in record time.
And what was my surprise that I found functional portal there! So this is my last entry in this diary. Was it only a month since I started writing it? That month completely changed my life. I'm now using all my robots to pack all that could fit in that portal (even this habitat seems to be deconstructable quite easily into just a few large boxes).
And I'm taking all the element I found. Does not seem to be much more left on this piece of asteroid. I cannot feel it anymore on any of my trips around or inside it.
So to whoever will read it, this is the story of my life for past month. I instructed my robots to construct a beacon so someone hopefully find this diary and read it, but I will be long gone.
Goodbye. I hope that my adventure just begun!
Yeah, this is not over, continue here.
Next day was full of packing of all belongings to carts. We also went to cave a few times to gather as much element as we could. Who knows whats on the other side of that portal. And we need that element to feed the dragon (seems that he lives on meat but without element there is no flight or fire).
In the evening there was quite some people with full carts of stuff near entrance to cave. Dragon told us that way to portal is quite long and we should hurry. It was not that bad after all. Took us a few hours, but tunnels we quite smooth and fortunately none were blocked by cave-ins or lava. Tremors were nearly constant but this old lava tunnels held nicely.
Interestingly we had not seen any other dragon all the way here. Is that one we found the last one? He told us that he is definitely not the last one (at least he hoped) but dragons do not live it this particular cave.
When we arrived to the chamber of fight we saw that portal for first time. Floor was covered with smooth cooled lava so it was quite easy to reach it. It was a circle of blue shimmering light on far wall surrounded by strange symbols around it on floor an wall.
We convinced our dragon to go with us through with all the people behind us. Just after we crossed that light surface connection to my vessel broke. Last sensation was picture of some lush green valley with sun shining. Could it be Earth? Sun diameter was just about right and not that small as here. And I could felt that gravity was much higher too.
I woke up with sadness because I felt I probably never see him again. We will see in coming days. It will be much more lonely here without him.
...
And I was right. No connection during my sleep for a week. I could play with element and hone my skills but without my dreams with vessel it was pointless. So today I went for a walk in a cave my mining robots found recently. It was strangely familiar. As this cave tunnel near that place of fight. It was not easy to move fast and safely in my space suit but I managed to reach that last chamber in record time.
And what was my surprise that I found functional portal there! So this is my last entry in this diary. Was it only a month since I started writing it? That month completely changed my life. I'm now using all my robots to pack all that could fit in that portal (even this habitat seems to be deconstructable quite easily into just a few large boxes).
And I'm taking all the element I found. Does not seem to be much more left on this piece of asteroid. I cannot feel it anymore on any of my trips around or inside it.
So to whoever will read it, this is the story of my life for past month. I instructed my robots to construct a beacon so someone hopefully find this diary and read it, but I will be long gone.
Goodbye. I hope that my adventure just begun!
Yeah, this is not over, continue here.
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